D@Rk Tr@GeDy

lol

2006-03-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

staRt scHooL lE..ReaLisE i BeRry LonG nO bLog Le..lol..can say i lazy..but ya lo..jiu shi ze yang..hehe..school nt bad lo..onli berry boring..my class everytime talk..rarely serious..hmm..wasted..tot can really settle down and study but was wrong...hmm..talkin abt settling down..im happy and contented le..i found someone le..lol..tt special some1 i met in carls de..i m grateful to carls..hehex..dear..i noe u coming 2 c my blog..hehe..tis song really berry nice..believe me..recently berry tired..so i stop now..im lazy

sign off,
daRiuS aNd eSthEr

my lifes a f$#$ mess..

2005-12-07T02:16:00.000+08:00

hope tis saturday my fren ca borrow a lancer..im gonna drive myself crazy..as in literally..

ReMuS,
sad sad world

official countdown:4 more days..

2005-11-18T13:46:00.000+08:00

wa..4 more days to freedom..and also 4 more days tt will decide my life..wa..stress stress..now stress beta den ltr stress..hoping and wishing and praying 4 e best..all da best 2 u all.!!!!

sign off?
remus?
hope ah hope..wish ah wish..pray ah pray..

e makings of a monster..

2005-11-16T18:06:00.000+08:00

i hav headache, m hungry and veri tired..= monstrous attitude.. sori if i kinda dao any1.. cox i 2day really no strength 2 do anything le..

sign off,
remus
hungry hungry.......

invoke-english translated

2005-11-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

Every time we hurry past each other, we hit and tear ourselves on impact
and we feel the pain of each other's wings

We were embraced in unclean, impure arms
because in our loneliness we didn't know any better

The moment we connect, eternity will awaken - I long for it

Exposed in a flickering instant that flew by too fast
I can't reach anything alone
These mere wishes and fading words
can't get get us anywhere by themselves

Though I fixed my eyes right on them, I've still lost sight of the stars
But their light remains, and no one can steal it

The light of our existence is confirmed by our lips
It's dazzling from the emotions that are bottled up inside us

Is it love that lies ahead, or will everything break apart? It bewilders me...

Intertwined in this heat, wanting to speak the truth
Who do I protect them from?
This feeling you wanted so badly once,
If it's there...

Exposed in a flickering instant that flew by too fast
I can't reach anything alone
These mere wishes and fading words...

Intertwined in this heat, wanting to speak the truth
Who do I protect them from?
This feeling I wanted so badly once...

It lies in you...

invoke..

2005-11-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

sure chikai isokgu tabi ni butsuke ai chigire autagai no hane no itami kanji te iru

samishisa ni yogore ta ude de daita
sore igai no nani ka wo shiranai kara

tsunagaru shunkan mezame ru eien machi kogareru

haya sugiru toki no matataki ni sara sare te
hitori de wa todo ka nai
negai nante kie sou na kotoba ja
tadori tsukenai

jitto me o korashi temo miushi natte shimau hoshi
dare no mono nimo naranai hikari ga aru
kuchibiru tashi kameru inochi no hi ga
omoi tsumeta youni mabushii kara

ai ga saki nanoka kowasu noga saki ga madowa sareru

karami au netsu no tsutae tai shin jitsu wo
dare kara mamore ba ii?
kimi ga itsuka hoshi gatta omoi ga
soko ni aru nara...

haya sugiru toki no matataki ni sara sare te
hitori de wa todo ka nai
negai nante kie sou na kotoba ja

karami au netsu no tsutae tai shin jitsu wo
dare ka mamore ba ii?
koko de itsuka hoshi gatta omoi ga

kimi ni aru kara...

bad time 2 blog?

2005-11-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

yyup!!!! wa..tis is such a bad time 2 blog..i n03 i sld b studyin but wad can i do..i hav so much 2 say..today is stress stress stress..wa kau..dyin le..i m so stressed tt i cannt even rmb wad i did 5mins ago..and btw..theres a scammer in e interent hu uses ppl's names and nicks 2 scold other ppl..so watch out..it mite nt b ur fren..*scarY*..anyway..how i came 2 n0e of e scammer..cox.....*drum roll* e scammer used my nick!!!!!!! *ding ding ding* dun let me or mj catch him/her..either mj will scold e person dearly..or worse..dun let me catch..i'll make sure e scammer call me god..!! muahaha..evil rite? hu call me dada potato and panda? lolx..my life is rockin.. all i need n0w is 2 pass my o lvls and woohoo.. simply magic..but n0w im nt sure..i'll continue 2 fight..

fight 2 e bitter end my fellow comrades..lets go..we'll charge head on..make sure we make our mark..our stand..place our flag there..b4 we leave..make our presence known..all e best 4 e o lvls..!2 every1 hu n0es me! CHEERS 2 OUR FRENSHIP!!!!!!

SIGN OFF,
PanDa
Rock On, PEaCE

long time no updates

2005-11-04T22:56:00.001+08:00

so bored..exams exams exams..study study study..tts wads goin tru my mind now..haiX..lucky i havE FrenX hu helped me get over my relationship probs fast..actually e formula is tt simple..u take frens + studies= no problems.. of cox..there r exceptions tt u mite hav quarrels..but @ least u n0e they will still b by ur side in e end..i've made new frens..BUT as e saying goes..new frens r silver..old frens r gold..their value r much more den silver..and of cox tru frens r diamonds..fortunately i found some rare diamonds..really..and n0w i've found silver 2..its really a form of blessing for me..considering e fact tt some ppl dun even have frens..ya..btw..its late n0w..beta log off n0w..theres nth else beta now den 2 study study study..

sIgN OfF,
ReMuS A.K.A PaNdA
Dj XiaO BoI BOi
TeChNo SiAo!!!

long time no updates

2005-11-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

hai

2005-10-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

tis relationship ended unexpectedly..2 soon..2 quickly..im @ a lost..duno wad 2 do..i still feel sad..sad tt i lost something tt i felt was worth it..anyway..im glad tt i knew e truth..if nt e cut wld b deeper..i wld b hurt more badly..n0w i no mood 2 b angry..everyting also dun hab..i oni happy tt i have my trust-able frenS!! they r e 1s hu pull me up..pull..and never let go..i n0e tt i will nvr fall..even if i fell..i wun fall badly..4 tis..i salute my frens.. thx 4 everything..im glad 2 hav u all.. lolx.. now i need 2 study study study...*gam bah teh*!!!! lol..im nt sure if tt means wrk harder..lol..if it isn i will erase lo..lolx..

sign off,
ReMuS,
panda!!

li sheng jie-chi xin jue dui

2005-08-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

xiang yong yi bei LATTE ba ni guan zui
hao rang ni neng duo ai wo yi xie
an lian de zhi wei
ni bu tong zhe zhong gan jue
zao you ren pei de ni yong yuan bu hui
(*)kan jian ni he ta zai wo mian qian
zheng ming wo de ai zhi shi yu mei
ni bu tong wo de na xie qiao chui
shi ni yong yuan bu ceng guo de ti hui
(#)wei ni fu chu na xie shang xin ni yong yuan bu liao jie
wo you he ku mian qiang zi ji ai shang ni de yi qie
ni you hen hen bi tui wo de fang bei
jing jing guan shang men lai mo shu wo de lei
ming zhi dao rang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui
wo hai sha sha deng dao qi ji chu xian de na yi tian
zhi dao na yi tian ni hui fa xian
zhen zhen ai ni de ren du zi shou zhe shang bei
(Repeat *#)
ceng jing wo yi wei wo zi ji hui hou hui
bu xiang ai de tai duo chi xin jue dui
wei ni luo di yi ti lei
wei ni zuo ren he gai bian
ye huan bu hui ni dui wo de jian jue

duno y..

2005-08-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

suddenly i get e feeling of sadness all over again..haix..guess tis is nt my life..im havin depression..no1 2 help me get thru it..im on my own once again..its a dark road ahead..im uncertain of wad e future will bring..but im sure i wldn wan 2 go back 2 live in e past..sadness is all tt i can feel now..unsure y..but yet dun ask me..jux wana get someting tt i can use 2 unwind..i wana live in an exciting life..1 full o f racing..im tired..really tired..my frens..hav all turned bitter..except all those gangsters..4ever cheerful..frens..is tt wad i sld call them? my bros and siss i've negected u..i've done nth recently 2 turn tt position ard..im stuck..in a bottemless pit..dark..its really dark..almost wishin i nvr existed..tis world is 2 much pain 4 me 2 bear..i wonder wad type of frens i've made..so tis world is 2 much 4 me 2 take..i wana rip everyting apart..and put it back piece by piece..but im tired..besides..i duno how much longer i can last..i may get heavily depressed..extreme..i cannt take stress..its shit..dam..tired..tired..
REmUS,
RacIng Is My LiFe

where can i my gal gal??

2005-08-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

Tonight it's very clear
'Cause we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone
Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't want to lose you
I could never make it alone
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away
I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We did it all for love

hmm

2005-08-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

Wo duo zai che li shou wo zhao xiang bin
Xiang yao gei ni sheng ri de jing xi
Ni yue zou yue jin you liang ge sheng yin
Wo cuo shou bu ji zhi de leng zai na li
Wo ying gai zai che di bu ying gai zai che li
Kan dao ni men you duo tian mi
Zhe yang yi lai wo ye bi jiao rong yi si xin
Gei wo li kai de yong qi
Ta yi ding hen ai ni ye ba wo bi xia qu
Fen shou ye zhi yong le yi fen zhong er yi
Ta yi ding hen ai ni bi wo hui tao hao ni
Bu hui xiang wo zhe yang hai zi qi wei nan zhao ni

incomplete

2005-08-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Empty spaces filled me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody's guess
I try to go on like I never knew you
I am awake for my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
For without you all I am going to be is
Incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby my baby it’s written on your face
You’ll still wonder if we made a big mistake
I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake for my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
For without you all I am going to be is
Incomplete
I don’t mean to drag it on
I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I won't let you go (alone)
I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake for my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
For without you all I am going to be is
Incomplete
Incomplete

i'd do anything

2005-08-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there and I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cause so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone and I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
'Cause somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me
'Cause I know I won't forget you
Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place and never come back
So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here, I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
Na na na, na na na
And I'd do anything for you
Na na na, na na na na

???

2005-07-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

Fan zhe wo men de zhao pian, xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
Qu nian de dong tian, wo men xiao de hen tian
Kan zhe ni ku qi de lian, dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
Lai bu ji ting jian, ni yi zou de hen yuan
Ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo, ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo, qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
Jiu suan shi wo bu dong, neng bu neng yuan liang wo
Qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
Wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou, shi ni shou shang de jie kou
Qing ni hui tou, wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
Jiu suan mei you jie guo, wo ye neng go cheng shou
Wo zhi dao ni de tong, shi wo gei de cheng nuo
Ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong, chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
Ru guo yao zou, qing ni ji de wo, ru guo nan guo, qing ni wang le wo

sign off,
darius

long time no blog

2005-07-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

i guess tis is da time where all r bz wif exams..jux wana wish all..e bestest luck any1 cld get..i guess..i'll c ya all @ end of tis year..hopefully wif smiles..and again..take care of ur health..health is number 1..duno wad 2 say liao

sign off..
remus..
if im still e dada..or pandada..
but i'll will always b around..

saturday?

2005-07-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

i tot got study de lehx..went down 2 harbour..reach @ 12.30..tot late le..gotta rush le..walk quickly up..walk walk walk..den reach e food court..eh..nobody..hmm..mux b late..so i started walkin downstairs..as i walk..i called wini..she told me 2 call minjia..so i called again..den she told me mux confirm sumting wif wini..so k..den i hang up..den sit @ e mrt day dream..den i call mil..say they duno comin anot..den talk talk..den..hang up..i called minjia again..den she say all nt comin le..den i kk..nvm..bb..*kraP*..hang up..den call mil..talk 2 her..say they nt comin liao..den got 2nd line..den i shou bu liao le..i ownself hang up..i told her finish den call me..she sms me..say go toa payoh study..i reminded her..library @ weekends cannt study le..so bo pian..i go somerset..no mood study..tot wana play game..den reach there..nbcb..they close 4 gamin stuff..AHHHHHHHHHHHHH..2day nt my day..haix..den went esplanade meet ash..den made some new frens..den ash u no la..e 3..hehe..nvm..back 2 topic..ya..there is knn de hot la..wad can i do..sit there c them break dance lo..den went marina arcade play 3 game leave again..go marina food court..eat tt time..c aeroplane fly pass..den*WA* run out go c..den wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa wa..*cox got alot of plane*..den suddenly*boom* lolx..fang da pao!!!!wow...singapore tremor..earthquake..after tt nth c le..den go ps..play e xbox..until 10..e onli ting tt worked out is wen i @ ps play game..2day everyting was f%$ up..also duno wad 2 say..@ loss for words..
sign off,
remus
sian 1/2

hai

2005-07-04T17:36:00.000+08:00

theres so many tings tt i lik..but theres onli 1 ting rite now tt matters..is my frens..so here i m..my apologise 2 those whom i hav offended or hurt or injured..im very sori..will i b 4given?

hey

2005-06-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

i wana b ard..wen ppl need help..i wana b ard..really..i wana feel helpful..but if i nt helpful pls ask me 2 siam b4 i make tings worse..so ya..tts all 4 2day..hmm..if u've read wad i wrote..pls tag abt ur comments!

sign off
remus
mixed day..

hmm..

2005-06-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

quite sad la..got nt much ppl 2 talk 2 lerx..hmm..its been so long since palette got together lerx..day after day..nite after nite..tiring days turning into slpless nites..im becomin a zombie..a burden..pullin ppl down..always..it seems..impossible..4 me..2 try..2 pull ppl up..anymore..they hav become immune..or rather..bored..of me..so..im rendered useless..theres nth much i can do now..i sld continue stayin happi..but now my future lies in uncertain and dark paths..nobody 2 guide me anymore..my frens hav decided tt some otr stuff r more impt @ tis time..im left 2 figure out wad 2 do..kinda lost..kinda afraid..but nth i can do..wad can i do?i feel as though i m e meanin of lonliness..ppl hav already pursued their happiness..and r smilin happily..and i m..still ever wishin tt they will b eternally happi..i dun mind losing out..im fightin a losing battle..a war..in which i hav no weapons..i also no tt..otr den andy and mj hu reads tis sad blog..theres really nobody else..so..i guess i kinda wana thank u ppl..i really duno wad 2 say..mayb u care and e rest dun?mayb e rest care but dun wana say..mayb they dun even no somebody lik me exist..its sad 2 know..but..hai..i wonder wad i've done in life..i no i dun deserve much..but sldn i get @ least some tings? y is life always a bed of nails for me? how many actually no how i feel..how many..jux ask urself? how many times hav u cared for otrs? how many otrs hav been hurt.. i personally dun mind..cox they r merely jux frens..but palatte is different..palatte sld b fun..happi..i tried my best..pls 4give me if i've wronged..i know im STUPID..neither m i handsome..neither m i rich..some mite befriend me..some hate me..none loves me..is it my character? is it my looks? isit my behaviour? what is it? can some1 tell me?y do i always feel so left out..mayb i cant communicate well..but..nvm..its my fault..i sld hav tried 2 understand u all..instead of gettin u all 2 listen 2 me..frm now on..i will nt lead..but instead..walk alongside or follow..its lik whenever im ard..bad tings happen..life sux..it really does..how many ppl in my contacts wld really take e time 2 msg me or call me? or disturb me?out of 150..mayb onli 5-6..tts e prob..sometimes realy feel so lonely loh..hmm..wad sld i do?sianx..isit i tok 2 much?isit i 2 xialan..isit??isit??isit??ISIT??somebody pls tell me? im @ lost 4 words..i duno wad 2 say anymore..im dryin up..fadin away..torturin myself..in e mornin..i wake up..go school..study..release frm school abt 4-5..tried 2 meet palatte..mostly unsuccessful..so long le..except for brief meetings as long as 10mins as short as 5secs..i guess im losin my touch le..im no longer..ppl r gettin bored of me le..hahas. :( .hahas.. :( .hahas..feel lik breakin down..y do ppl look @ me as though their so unhappi?do i cause grief?do i bring sadness?i nt up 2 standard? e yandaos and chiobus out there more appealing rite? haha..ya la..i sldn hav did so many tings..e yandaos and chiobus need nt even do anyting..m i so destestable..? do u all love 2 hate me?its nice 2 c me depressed..hahas..im goin in2 depression liaox..duno y..hahas..hahas..hahas..crazy le..recently so many tings happened..i hav no1 2 share wif..or rather..no1 wans 2 noe..kinda sad 2 hear tis la..but..blame it on me la..ppl also nt interested..i stupid enough 2 go blab abt lame stuff la..its all my fault..sori 4 all e inconvineinces caused..i'll shuttup more now..

sign off..
remus
depression mode.......................................................................

no gf..

2005-06-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

hmm..i duno if i sld b happi or sad..hai or haha..hmm..so long no gf lo..wads e feelin of bein loved?can onli ask ppl hu r in love..wads e feelin wen u r 2gether?can onli hear wad others feel..love is a big word..duno if i can understand it anot..probably i cldn understand tts y nobody wan me..haha..its so hard 2 understand w/o some1 helpin me..hmm..lonely sia..although i hab frens..but tts nt enuf..cox its always im e 1 hu disturbs them..nt they disturb me..tears swiftly come and go..im dreaming of her..she's cin other guys emotions astir..e sun is gone..e ntes r long..can u help me find a way 2 carry on again? i left another msg u r nvr ard..but everytime i look for you e sun goes down..
hmm..y issit tt it is so easy for some 2 find stead?issit bcox some chio some dao ppl?or do they hab $$?i really duno le lar..i wan somebody true..tt can accompany me..e best is 4 e rest of my life le..hmm...yarx..y so hard 2 find?

sign off,
remus
isiit tt hard 2 find?
even heaven is hell w/o u(still duno hus tt u)

ok

2005-06-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

25TH june 2005..
went 2 pasir ris..@ 12.30..ended up reachin @ 11.30..so ya..walk walk..atebreakfast..so went 2 downtown east..so fun..lolx..hahas..erm..4got e names of e rides but..nvm had fun..missed 1 game la..damn wasted..e go kart..piang..missed by a few minutes..sianx..hahas..nvm..had lotza fun..damn tired..den saw krishnan there piang..keep cin him..monday sure kana tekan dehx..hahas..hmm..sunday..damn quiet la..nobody msg me..nobody call me..onli i disturb ppl lo..sianx..hhmm..ya..hope tml ok la..dun wana die so young..i hate o lvl la..y e education system so pressure deh..ahhhhh..sianxx...c u all tml..unless u all dun wana meet..

e long waited movie..

2005-06-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

initial d is finally in singapore..tml somemore..but..i've nobody 2 watch wif..so i guess..its a miss again..so far i've missed a couple of movies..madagascar..also missed..nvm larx..premonition also wan..but duno when..so..hmm.nvm lo..
do u ever qns ur life?do u ever wonder y?do u ever c in ur dreams..all e castles in e sky..oh tell me why..do we build castles in e sky..oh tell me why..all e castles way up high........
hmm..ya..1 day nvr blog liao..hahas..holidays r always e time 4 me 2 blog.. i've been wrong..i've been down..in2 e bottem of every bottem..so sianx..duno wad to do liao..feel lik fading away...
sign off,
remus,
faded liao..

i've made up my mind

2005-06-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

hahas..i tink my future is gonna b a police le..b police gd ah..basic 6 mths training..train unarm tactics..and a whole lot more..but gotta hab a gd education den got high rank den got "high" money..lol..hee..police gd in a sense tt can serve and protect e country and e ppl..but..berry limited time 2 go out hab fun..its a demandin job..so far..e police is wad i tot of..mayb wait till im 18 years old den decide lorx..

sign off,
remus
future abit blurx...

biking in ubin day

2005-06-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

lol..hee..wa..2day..saw someting damn hot..quite bright de..i c liao..nono..in fact we c liao all steam ah..hahas..wa..e sun ah..killer ah..felt lik i was in a steam cooker..hey wad were u tinkin?lols..nvm..damn tired lo..went up hills..down hill e most fun de la..lol..hee..wa..2day..quite many collisions..erm..wini almost hit some1 cox she went 2 fast..den shuwen 2 near me..den i kinda hit her..lols..sori hor..didn mean 2..ya..den mj and sw lik nuclear power station lahx..so many uphill and downhill ltr still got energy cycle..omg..return e time damn song la..cox can exercise my butt..wa..pain pain..lols..hmm..den eat quite abit there also..$8 hor fun..duno how much de egg..sambal kangkong..hee..sw eat all..wini help abit..lols.. mj wanted chicken wing..den supposed 2 share..but in e end she ended up eatin most of it..wa..den e drinks suddenly feel berry little..i drink 2 can liao still thirsty..sian 1/2..lols..after tt we went pasir ris white sands so song..e air con..felt lik i 20 years nvr touch aircon..wa..hahas..yalo..2day is fun larx..but den after tt..wini went 4 chalet(more fun)..sw went home le(tired)..mj left abt 6pm(tired)..den i go down find ash and mil..play pool..$10.50..wa..okie..den we went 2 eat..eat le..went back arcade..i play 2 rounds maximum tune..dun play le..save $$..end year got more stuff 2 dp mahx..lols..ya..aniway e arcade berry expensive..each round $2so i dun wana play cox of tt also la..den no place go le..come back home lo..nth is beta den home..lols..damn tired
sign off..
remus
happi but tired

time 2.15am

2005-06-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

e time now is 2.15 am la..i cannt slp..duno y..haix..feelin troubled..but duno wads e cause..sianx..haix..a troubled person cannt slp well de lo..anyway..ltr 8am hab 2 wake up le..means i onli got 6 hour more..haix..hope i can find out y im so troubled..hmm..gtg soon le..

sign off,
remus
haix..duno y..

hell!!!

2005-06-16T16:34:00.000+08:00

haix..after so long..im still hoping tt someting will happen..my guess is tt i sld go2 hell..after so much torment..so much pain..im still hopin 4 e best..wad m i doing?fckin hell la..haix..my life is jux a fckin torment..if im a fckin xtra pls tell me..i will leave..i wonder if i bring happiness or sadness..isit me or r e ppl nt feelin me?sld i bcome invisable?ya i tink tt sld b e way..remain silent le..anyway wen i speak..nobody seems 2 notice also..anyway..im speechless le lahx..avoid me if u mux lor..if 1 day..if any1 cannt take it..jux scream..tell me 2 get lost..i'll b gone..dun need me liaox..yarx..hahax..hahax..hax..im a fckin disappointment..

sign off,
remus..
a lonely case

10.30pm

2005-06-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

hmm..lets c..wow..its been quite long since i saw palette grp together again..ya..ever since police carnival..which was like?erm..last saturday 12june05..hmm..wonder how all of them r..many r kinda lik mia's(missin in action's)i tried my best..but they dun reply me @ all..so quite saddenin la..but..wad can i do?cant force them rite?its their choice..hmm..aniway..life kinda sux @ e moment..cannt say i hab cash la..but im tryin hard 2 pool $$..lolx..so many tings i wana do..all hab 2 abandon plan cox of e stooooooopid o lvls..sian 1/2..nvm la..i wait until end of year lohx..wana play pool..wana get new stuff..new hp..haix..sad sad sad..sad sad sad world tt i live in..im tryin 2 b as positive as i can b..but "some" of my frens tink tt they r tired of bein positive..ok..lemme get tis straight..by bein negative..wad do u get? a prize? no..u get hurt feelings..u get lesser frens..u get 2 b labeled as bad influence..lets c..if every1 on earth has a bad attitude..there will b no peace..imagine a life full of terror..full of anger hatred..wld u lik tt? or u prefer a live..peaceful..fun..colourfull..got beautiful scenery 4 u 2 c? hmm..somemore..lets c..yes..the price of war..wld b..dead ppl..many injured..hundreds more afraid.. the price of peace..many laughter..many in beta health conditions..bad attitude is also bad 4 health..so wads more 2 argue..okie..mayb im 2 small a person 4 ppl 2 consult or 2 take advice frm..i cannt lead u..i can onli walk with you..so ya..tts e most i can do..but its actually sad to c so many ppl wif negative attitude..haix..sad sad..duno wad they accomplish by showin such bad attitude..i no..nobody takes my words or advice seriously..cox im always jokin ard..im always made fun of bcox im e joker..so my feelings dun really matter..always e neglected 1..nobody cares 2 drop me a simple..how r u today type of msg..i nt tryin 2 say tt i m desperate for attention..but..haix..how come nowadays frens r all so 1 minded track..they always tink..ok..if he/she msges me a qns i will reply..if he/she jux drops a morning or nitex msg..i will not reply..y..can some1 tell me?wads becoming of this world? nvm..back to frens..how come all of u can get e msg tt u all r goin out somewhere..and i dun..i hab 2 probe ard lik im frm e police conductin investigation jux 2 find out some things?is my life supposed 2 b lik tis? if it is..im sure im gonna b some miserable asshole..tinkin e world will still hab some love..some care..some hope..if we believe we can..but if we give up hope..we will lose e battle..
sign off,
ReMuS a.k.a DarIUs
sad sia..haix..nth i can do

lets c

2005-06-15T16:08:00.000+08:00

test..so long nvr blog le..

haix

2005-06-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

haix..how long will i still b lonely..how i wish..hmm..guess fairy tales do nt happen in my case..hmm..guess i 2 naive 2 believe fairy tales do happen..my life is of a different kind..one tt nvr goes rite..

sad?

2005-05-31T16:49:00.000+08:00

so far..i tink tis will b e saddest week i ever hab.firstly..i feel as though im not welcomed sometimes..mayb..sometimes i 2 extra le..duno leh..lik e song says..if u wanted honesty tts all u had 2 say..so i guess..tts wad i wan..duno la..i guess im crapping la..depressed sia..holidays r nt gd..im waitin 4 end year..so as 2 c wad holidays bring 2 me..more crap or more swt and good memories 2 look back and tink of..mayb..i definitely hope its e 2nd choice..hope every1 is ok..but dun really tink i m..somehow..i feel lik breaking out..
sign off..
remus dada..
hmm...

why

2005-05-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

recently i c my frenx..more and more r feelin e pressure e government set on them..nt 2 mention me..hey..tell u de truth..tink hougang "chalet" undergoin extention..wa piang..e exams la..school work..enuf 2 drive ppl crazy..nt 2 mention e heaviness we endure..nvm la..haix..e government will nt understand..all elders do nw is keep saying last time last time..so easy liddat..so good..no need study can b boss..hah..now study so hard can onli b road sweeper!! woohhooo!! so shiok!! go long piak la..muahaha..ppl out there..pls pray tt i dun bcome a politician ok? cox there will b full fledged war..nt usin chemical weapons..but talks everywhere..i will take e world by storm..remove e pressures of studyin..actually..we study so hard 4 wad?competing against ourself onli wad..nt say aliens challenge us to knowledge fights..hahx! education system sux..in fact..e greatest mistakes were made..e moment bombs and guns were created..bcox they onli bring abt destruction to ourself in de long term..

Remus a.k.a Darius
dj xiao boi boi is in da hse..woohoo!!

haix..sianxxxx..

2005-04-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

kan bo liao..sian 1/2..wa lau..exams comin le..arhss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wa lau..sux la..my wonder land w/o school kana shattered!! sian1/2..y does god make ppl 2 study so hard 2 bcome politicians hu ruins students or rather peoples life?? politicians put in a worse term r called bastards..except 4 some..some lighten burdens ..some jus add on..lik they feel e pressure..ya..wow..den i dun feel pressure..wa piang..they ah pek le lei..i a teen boy..surely they face pressure 4 so long liao..tts y they dun feel la..even if mentally i dun feel pressured..physically i feel pressured already!!!!!! wa lau ..e books lik u go NS liddat!! siao ah!! so heavy..call MOE go long piak!! if i no go america study..but if i went there study..i wldn hab met my wonderful frens!! thx frens!! singapore sux!! thx alot singapore!! 4 e extremely "cool" temp.. and de somehow extremely "light bags"..our bags look lik we store bomb inside..looks heavy seems heavy and we sweatin away lik veri nervous lidat!! siao bo

REMUS, DARIUS, siGn oFf,
xiao boi boi..growin slower and slower

the cold brutality

2005-04-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

of the human world is so ever lasting..if i had e world in my hands..i would squeeze all e sadness out..waoh!!! sadness sadness..i will try my best..2 work @ my veri best..2 change wadever sadness my life or my frens possess..i will try my utmost best..for my brothers and sisters..my real family..my 2nd family..so on and so forth..wadever it is..STRIVE ON..viva REVOLUTION!! on the other hand..i m really gettin confused..wether im happi or sad..how can a person b happi and sad @ e same time?? onli time will tell..1 shot in life is all tt we got..blow it and ur times over..the cold brutality..unbearable..death awaits those unaware and unprepared..b wary..

ReMuS,DarIuS SiGn OFF
xiao boi boi scared in a big world!!

sian 1/2 day

2005-04-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

2day..supposed 2 slp 2 12pm de..kana wake up @ 10 go clinic wif dad..duno y he sick..nvm..came back 11.30..half aslp..yb call me..ask me e unfortunate incedent tt happened ytd(23rd 4 05)..i wasn ard wen e incident happened..but eventually i managed 2 picture wad was happenin..i managed 2 snap every1 out of their minds 2 tink..WA..luckily it was done on time..i was gonna snap..haix..tml skool again school sux..JUX HOPE 'O' FINISH SOON..PRESSURE RISING.!

remuS:sign out
xiao boi boi

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

sudden bout of DEPRESSION!!!!!!! to me, our deepest fear is not that we are inadaquate. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dammit la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!gnfow aphtu9-5yqt0ae[mgkqEJ=5YIRAKPH[FAEKOZ Y DA HELL EVERYTING DARN TING IN DIS WORLD IS SO SCREWED UP?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I M GOIN (N)UCKIN (F)UTS.........

sIgH oUt,
rEmUs,coNfUseD AnD alOne
liTtlE BOI LOST

woah!?!?!?!?!?!

2005-04-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

2day ..study @ harbour as usual..muahaha..den eat there read there write there..breathe there..(lame)..hehex..anyway..ya..after tt abt 3.20 left 4 tiong..yea..watch house of fury..woah..nicky shuai..erm..slide..use hand turn 360 degree..kick 2 times..yea!! cool..nvm..bet u dun understand wad im writin..show finished..olmpic 2 toilet..woo..lucky i fast cox e toilet ltr damn pack..*toilet also mux rush*..sian 1/2...okie..den we proceeded 2 suntec..erm..meet mil father..*he seemed berry friendly*...den we went downstair 2 eat roti prata..end up tokkin abt motak and botak..hehexx..go ps lo..walk walk..leg tired..carry wini bag walk ard..haix..i tt 2day can dun bring bag..hu noes i pop 1 bag out..2day a mix of joy and tiredness!!

SiGnIn OfF,
ReMuS a.k.A DaRiUs
smile AlWaYz

remus_online

2005-04-07T21:02:00.001+08:00

finally can update straight frm my own com..in my own comfort..woah!! haix..but unfortunately..wad started out 2day brightly ended in darkness both literally and not literally..bcox as day turns in2 nite..it is time 2 part and go our separate ways again..but..study 2 movies 2 walk didn turn out as expected..e movies were canceled..sooo..haix..haix..haix..haix....nvm..had my share of joy and sadness.. im at a lost of words now..guesss i stop writing :( sign off. ReMuS p.s DuN 4GeT Me!!!

remus_online

2005-04-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

remus

2005-04-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

darius here testin 123 ..i dun tink can submit or rather i tried many times liao berry fedup...

woah!!

2005-04-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

2005-03-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

26th march 05, wini,yb,mj,mil,hc started a self revision class, though e destination is nt certain..but its still a class..e place was harbourfront..cool rite?? inside e food court..studyin admidst food..somemore i nvr eat breakfast yet..hours after hours passed..finally we cldn take it anymore..so we went 2 e arcade for a short game..andy and xm came jux as we finished..so we went down 2 far east..
erm..bla bla bla(a series of unfortunate events)..soon we finished eating..wini wanted 2 go back in2 far east 4 some walk walk..but mildred kept pullin mj as if tey were goin home so wini left..after which i was on a ("high speed") pursuit 2 find wini..turned out she had boarded..some1 managed 2 coax her off e bus..but @ a rather far place..heeren..so no choice..we walked there find wini..
then walked e whole heeren..and proceeded 2 e ps..there xm and andy left 1st as tey had 2 b hm early..so left me,mj,mil,wini..wini wanted 2 look 4 han song cox his cd wid her..han song told her he was in a restaurant on e 5th floor..but den wen we reached inside empty de..so wini called him again..he say he in food court..den we started 2 b sarcastic..sayin tt nex time my b'dae i treat u all eat @"restaurant"lol..we started laughin..we found hs w/o much probs..but den after tt..i somehow got all of their bags(mj,wini,mil,mine) wa..carry frm 5th floor all e way down 2 e 1st..lik go army lidat..den they took back their bags..hs also nvr help 1..wa lau..nvm la..dun care liao..after which mil,mj,and me left..whoah wad a tiring day
signin off,
ReMuS
TiReD

2005-03-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

after a useless day in school,i went out wif 2 prefects 4 a bball game,playin @ e outdoor bball court wif many soccer players and a "flyin ball"..a horrific co-incident..
we continued playin till abt 4pm,@ which i left skool,but e 2 prefects still wanted 2 play on..so we went 2 "wu lou" wini they de bball court 2 play..wa..wrong idea man..so tired liao still play..den they so stoopid still accepted a challenge frm other ppl..in which..was lik 3 v 1..it seemed onli i was e onli 1 in my team..cannt tahan..
nvm lorx..had fun lar..we won actually..and i made my way home..tt nite..received msges 2 go out on friday(25th march 05),go watch eye 10..
muahaha..e eye 10..i tot was extremely spooked..but den was proved wrong..e startin made me feel as though i was in e wrong
cinema..wa..scary..nvm..e show started..a little of luaghs here a little there..but many screams..woah!! hahax..enjoyed myself..after which..we went 4 a walk..an extremely long and tiring long walk..
walked frm ps 2 heeren..2 taka..back 2 ps..wa sei..leg bcome jelly..but nvm la..still had fun..but suay siao..met durian(adrian) and kj..s.b.s(si bei sian)..listen them talk berry fun lidat..cannt bear 2 leave us alone..wa piang eh..
so i left wif andy 2 go ps 1st..cox dere gt air con..10mins ltr ashley called 2 ask us where we were..after tt incident..we went back 2 e arcade..4 fun and games..!!
we left ard 8..
poor andy..had 2 go 2 e hospital @ 5pm..2 visit his grandma..went @ 8.30pm bcox we "pulled" him down..and ashley cldn wait 2 chase him off..
jux nice i had some company on my way home..andy was goin novena..tan tock seng or sumting liddat..(4got e hospital name)

thoughts

2005-03-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

things do not change-we change...trust can take years to build up but seconds to shatter...god made family to comfort but made friends to understand...if i have seen further then others,its bcox i stood on e shoulders of giants...the most unfortunate thing tt can happen to a person who fears failure and limits himself by becomin afraid to try anyting new....

sori guys and gals..

2005-03-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

my com down sia..until i can find a better solution..all i can do is wait till i @ my cousin hse lo..sori sori..ya..hey!!!instead of reading abt it y dun hear frm me??? call me or sms me..holidays le..dun leave me out.......

sianzationzzzzz

2005-02-13T18:43:00.001+08:00

wa..sie..ytd cld nt login e net so damn fedup..so futile attempt after futile attempts..f%# la..e stoopid junwei get on my nerves again..he everytime show off in frnt of me lo..so wad he got $$..nb..i tell him i wan 2 buy s700i..den he heard my fren also wana buy..ytd immediately chiong down go buy..wa!!! i hear liao immediately say e fone sux..nt nice lousy ah..haha..nvm..i wait until end year ma..so still got newer fone..me not scared..come la..jio 1 1..c hu win..haix..saddening..wif every lousy day..my person all sian diao..nvm..sian..

sign out,
ReMuS
BaCk WIf A VeNgEaNcE

hahx..

2005-02-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

new year..hectic sia..nvm..start..saturday..e week b4 cny..i went 2 my uncles hse 4 our whole family reunion dinner..den had fun..played wif my cousins..wa..how i miss childhood..we practically grew up 2gether..closely knit..hehex..damn nice..but den i in e lousiest skool lo..damn paisei..nvm..had fun..monday went 2 skool 4 a freakin long day..wa sei..nearly dieded(die) man!! school..until 2..den got stoopid character developement programme(cdp)..lik got use liddat..tok tok tok until 3.30..wa..my butt sit until numb sia..den hav 2 go detention..i heard its until 6..but den e t'cher lazy..let me off @ 4.15pm..muahaha..i went 2 meet ken ho..eat dinner..den 5.30 went tution till 6.30..den 6.30 wait till 7pm 4 a npcc meeting..after all i was there liao..me, ken lee, fu song reach le..doreen ken and darren c.i also reach le..nw wait 4 ivan and chrng siang..those 2 bloody idiots always late de..so our c.i told us tt if they 7.30 dun rech e meeting will b canceled..wa..i hear liao sian diao..but den still continued 2 wait..ken den say if nt e whole squad will kena punishment..so we started 2 fell nervous..wa lan..waited..wand waited den ken look @ his fone and told us tt we can whack ivan le..and den walked off wif e otr c.i's..wa...!!!!! dammit.nvm..new year eve..damn lame..started school..wif reading period..den 2 periods of geog wasted cox t'cher show us a documentary..yea!!den e celebrations..aiyo c liao almost slp..every year e same..cant wait 4 it 2 finish..den..nt long after..yea!!!! finish le..we immediately went 2 change in2 home clothes..chiong 2 orchard cine 2 play le..woah!! shiok..play till 6.30pm e shop ppl told us they were closing..so i paid and left..wen home for my veri own small reunion dinner..hahax..new years day!! went 2 my grand ma hse @1pm..den hang out there till 5pm..den wen home..i changed a new set of clothes..took e neccessary items and then left 4 national university of singapore(nus) cox my uncle stay there..he's a lecturer there..so got a hse there lo..cool huh? sian liao lo..every new year always go there stayover..nvm la..den we started playin cards frm 10pm-6.30am..den went 2 slp..all cannt take it le..woke up @ 11.30..ate 6 prata..den after "breakfast" e adults started another game of cards..play until 2pm..we den proceeded 2 yio chu kang..2 my aunty hse..there gt alot of japanese snacks 2 eat..cox her daughter,my cousin, bf is a japanese..cool sia..nvm..after eating there..we den proceed 2 my 2nd uncle hse..there..he ordered 4 pizzas..and 28 chicken frm kfc and pizza hut..eat until so full..shiok..after tt..we teens started a game of tai tee(big 2)..played until we weren so full..den went downstairs 2 e basketball court 2 play a little game of basketball..played 1 hour sia..den after tt..all e adults were complaining complain tt they all berry tired so all went home..jux ytd..mil b'dae..dun tok abt wad happen la..everytime liddat..i went 2 my other uncle hse..muahaha..i tink nex week is either my hse or my cousin de..muahahaha..

wa..

2005-02-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

2day kinda hapi.exciting..talkative..boring day i've ever had..its kinda interesting..hapi..wen i woke up late..started watchin tv+eat cereals..so shiok..noting 2 do..can laze ard..den exciting..my trip 2 e toilet(pls call me up or msn me abt tis..)talkative..though nt physically talkin..but its fun..exercising my fingers..talkin 2 yb most of e time..managin some time 4 andy..my cousins..and my school friends..hey hey..i can multi task..cool eh..i beta go..2molo gonna b a hard and long and tiring day..2day zero effort..

SiGn OfF,
ReMuS \(^0^)/
YeaH!!..

hehex

2005-02-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

hehex..y holidays r nvr as long as school days??..goddamn boring lei..its lik yeah..holiday..in a blink of an eye its gone..anyway wads wif tis education system ting??in my strong opinion ppl sld nt waste their life learning such crap such as algebra..i dun gettit..hows algebra gonna help u learn eng? or hows it gonna help u 2 aim a gun..its stoooopid..e governmrnt r made up of ppl hu,unfortunately,noes how 2 study..tok cok..and build crap stuff..hahax..aniway..holidays sld b made longer..mayb 1 year school..5 years holiday..mayb den i will miss school..otherwise school SUCKS!!!!!!

sign out
ReMuS
i soupork pablik edukashun!!
(i support public education)
school sux 4ever

sianzationsssss

2005-02-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

sianzzzz ah..haix..gone were de dayx..i tot happiness was everlasting..but little did i know..it wld turn out a tragedy..an e early parts of my happiness turns out 2 b my tormentor now..sadness..confusion..depression..stress..pressure..all..being compressed into me..alone..i dun wana b tormented..and i wld rather nt torment ppl..y..y ux i go tru tis terrible situation..mayb sld jux 4get myself..im gonna 4get im human..4get tt i feel pain..jux 4get it..hmm..aniway human pain is nt comparable 2 wad im bein subjected tru now..e pain of bein lonely..the pain of bein e onli "one"..these alone r heavy enuf 2 pull or push me straight down 2 e earths boilin core..these alone..mayb..wonder wads goin 2 pop out ard e corner..hope i wun "blow" up..if nt sometings bad will happen..hope it will nt happen..hopin..recently i gt fed up over npcc and english remedial..jux bcox of e teacher bein bias..and jux bcox our sir(curious can find me and ask me)..nw i've learnt nt 2 b afraid of c.i's..they will die bitterly @ my hands 1 fine day..the torment the put me tru..i wld avoid doin tt @ all circumstances..but wen e time comes i will do it..

signin off,
ReMuS
there comes a time where fighting will b a useless option
then a full fledged war will b waged 2 those hu offend me...

yeah?sux?

2005-02-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

skool sux man!!! i hate skool 100%..dammit..e cb t'cher wa lau..i raise hand 1st lo..she call otr ppl..y..jux bcox we frm low end x'press class can look down arhx??i already prove 2 her tt my grp da best liao lo..otr grp highest marks is 70+..my grp is 160..and she dun let us get marks le..bloddy @!#$%@!%$!@#%$#!..feel lik bashing ppl up..i tink e t'cher saw tt temper flared and stopped givin points..#%$!*&^$^T..wad is e meaning of tis?? nb..4 get abt it..2day saw mj yb mil,but someting diff,no wini and hc,how cum liddat..surprising..mayb tey didn wana c me..nvr mind lo..haix..anyway 2day almost beat up ppl liao..2molo npcc worse..i confirm gonna shout @ ppl liao..damn fed up..esp pei hui..she c.i onli can boss me ard??no way..jux bcox e x'country i nvr go 4 npcc duty onli u wan me do punishment?? F U..some 1 broke my name tag lo..bloody..so sickenin..den e stOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOpid chrng siang 8pm last minute tell me..where u wan me find new name tag??go down beach road already shop close..so u wan me buy de shop la??crazy as$..no way

finally..i can update

2005-01-29T13:05:00.000+08:00

so long le..my com always down de..sians..haix..now com can use le i 4get wad 2 update..i guess life is e same old boring ting 2 me..sianx..alot of tings happened in wich i cannt explain or understand..but i guess its part of life..ytd..e 28/1/05..was our cross country..i duno wad happened there..i guess it kinda sucks..2day 29/1/05..im all alone..duno wad 2 do animore..confused,alone ......

sign out..
ReMuS

2molo..holiday 4 ppl..loneliness 4 me..

2005-01-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

somehow i susceeded in gettin them(otr skool) 2 b 2gether..now im e 1 hus left out..mayb its time i vanish frm their sight..frm their world of fun..their world of frenships..enter hell myself..hopefully "die" soon..wads is e meanin 2 life?? 2 study hard & bcome some1 big?? launch attacks?? yyyyyy..somebody help me?? nobody can hear me shoutin 4 help..yyyyyyyyy?? haix..2molo holiday le..still nobody sms me..wan ask me go out..nvm la..i nt so thick skin de..count me out lo..afterall u gals r havin fun..nvm de..jux leave me here..they e anti-darius attitude le..i bcome their enemy or punchin bag wenever i c them..y..issit bcox im veri easy 2 b bullied? or m i givin in 2 much tt u ppl climb on top of me..

sign off,
ReMuS
in a mysterious cold war..
when was i included?

a new begainin..

2005-01-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

tis i shall declare a new begainin 4 me..i wan 2 start anew..as it so seems tt tis year has started alot of probs..haix..tokin abt probs comes my no 1 prob..frenx..they dun seem 2 realise wad they r doin..haix..ashley..all of u dun understand me well enuf?..sad sad sad sia..how come liddat de..i hope u will take some time and reflect wad u hav been doin when u meet me..most of e time i get bullied by u ppl..how come..mux i really show my bad side??mux e virus attack ur computer b4 u no how serious it is? mux some1 suffer 4 ur enjoyment?i dun understand tis type of frenship..cox it seems tt ppl liddat r tagged saddist..they derive joy frm seein ppl sad..here i m ..tryin 2 help out..lighten burdens..there r e ppl hu abuse these frenships..i wonder..sld i try sumting dangerous break someting & den try 2 find hu r my real true frens..haix..i guess e whole of singapore population also dun care..duno la..haix..i can onli say tt im bein neglected as a fren..and bein treated as a circus..though i may joke ard..but tt does nt mean i dont hav a temper..y y y y y yy yyyy y y y y y y y y y y y y y y..can somebody tell me y??!!?!? y ppl neglect true frens?? mux they always show their ugly side so tt ppl wun abuse tis frenship?? sld i do tt?? mayb nex time wen ppl hit me..i sld jux throw my bag on e ground and storm off?? it seems gd 2 me..really..

sign off,
ReMuS
darius

same direction

2005-01-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

whenever i step outside, somebody claims to see the lightit seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.'cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just mightbe more than one road to our final destinationbut i'm not ever going to know if i'm right or wrong'cause we're all going in the same directionand i'm not sure which way to go because all alongwe've been going in the same directioni'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blamefor all the holes in answers that are clearly showingfor something to fill the space, was all of the time i spent a waste'cause so many choices point the same way i was going.....so why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?i don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of themand why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?i'd like to think that i can go my own way and meet you in the end.but i'm not ever going to know..........

meant to live

2005-01-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

Fumbling his confidenceAnd wond'ring why the world has passed him byHoping that he's bent for more than arguments,And failed attempts to fly.We were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideSomewhere we live insideWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideDreaming about ProvidenceAnd whether mice and men have second triesMaybe we've been livin with our eyes half openMaybe we're bent and broken. BrokenWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideSomewhere we live insideWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?Somewhere we live insideWe want more than this world's got to offerWe want more than this world's got to offerWe want more than the wars of our fathersAnd everything inside screams for second lifeWe were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to live for so much moreHave we lost ourselves?We were meant to liveWe were meant to live

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!`

2005-01-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

finally i got my com 2 work..and minjia..i didn even hav 2 bang it..all i did was uninstall my connection and install again..+ alot of otr crappy stuff...finally..my long awaited day..hands itchin 2 type..c la..i 4get wad happen over de last few days le..i gt ustm..(ultra short term memory)hahax..
sign off,
ReMus
DArIus

im so "hapi"

2005-01-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

haiX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!y mux life b lik tis..even e strongest of my frenx hav fallen 2 stress..m i de onli 1 hu hasn fallen??i nvr wana play e gd guy ever again..nobody appreciates wat i've done..NOBODY!!!!!!!no 1 understands me beta den myself..y isit lik tis..i heard frm other ppl..to share my probs wif them..in e end where do i c them??? nowhere!! i cant find any of them anymore..they hav all changed..none of them were lik e old frnx i used 2 no..nobody is cheerful animore..nobody..nobody appreciates all e gd done animore..y do e badder guys and e more handsome guys ever remembered..while e more guai(gd) and ugly 1's get ignored in tis society?? y do ppl b'have is tis unruly manner???y y y..tell me y!!!!!y isit tt ppl take sincere frenx 4 granted..y is tt????? Y???Y???ARGH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!humans r savage beasts..damagin e environment and @ e same time can hurt e feelings of every1 ard them..humans wat r they..can ani1 explain e reason humans were brought 2 existance..y?? y were they brought 2 existance 2 learn tis ting called language?? y were they taught 2 speak wen they used it 4 insults..arguements..4 spitting all over e floor..y do ppl do tt??? where hav all their manners gone?? i hope none of my frenx turn out lik tis..as its repeatin wad happened last year..onli nearin e end of e year..do they remember some1 named darius..y isit so hard 2 remember all e gd tings ppl do 4 u?? hmm.. some1 tell me y!!!!! some1 pls explain..y e gds of human r overdone by e wrongs..y do ppl get condamned jux 4 a wromg out a 100 rights?? y??wad ever happened 2 e human heart..i tot tt e human heart cld feel other feelin lik sadness hapiness..love,hate,jealousy..envy..wadever happened?? y hav most of my frenx turned so cold blooded?? y do i look im dead in their eyes?? y?? y??disapointments run tru me as if it was flowin wif my blood..mux i "die" so coldly if frnt of so many ppl..an onli return 2 them onli wen they need me?? do i look lik a clown in which u hire me 4 those 1 week or mth..and den 4get tt im ur fren?? and tt year after year u hire tis clown 2 perform..onli 2 4get me again?? do u no tt tis is wad i face every year..can u imagine e agony..e insult i suffer??u no??does any1 no??!?!?! can any ans me?!?!? wad is e tru meaning of being frenx?? can any 1 search e dictionary..search it remember it..do ur part @ it..i help u u help me..but now frenx r purely..u handsome so u my fren..so e ugly 1's r quieter 1's will always b e 1 2 b leftout..lik me..im an ugly 1..im also not 1 of e badder kids..ppl dislik me..im sure im rite..im sure ppl make frenx wif me cox i hav a hgh tolerance lvl and tt i can withstand e hard knocks and slaps and kicks and pushes and wadever shi+ u shove 2 me..mayb tts it..im ur clown cum ounchin bag..4 wich 2 release ur stress on? wow..thx ..all i can say is..thx 4 bein my wonderful frenx.but i will nvr 4get e times we had..thx 4 4gettin me..thx 4 leavin me out on e fun..thx 4 rememberin me as e peacekeepin forces..thx 4 rememberin me as e clown cum punchin bag..thx 4 keepin e lousy name in ur handphone..thx 4 keepin tis lousy person as ur fren..thx..all i can say..well reallly..u guys and gals r gr8..thx alot.........

sign off,
remus SPITFIRE
hurt
thx 4 bein such wonderful frenx

alittle abt me.....

2005-01-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

tis is a kinda sad sad story abt me..there was once in secondary 2..where i had 4 frenx..though nt of e same skool..we were always going out 2gether..and so havin fun tru e mths..as we progressed in2 sec 3..our frenship started 2 deteoriate..an so i took uo tis job of bein e united nations peacekeepin forces..our frenship maintained well 4 a few mths..though mostly left out..i didn mind as we were of diff skools..but upon gettin in2 trouble i will receive news immediately..and so our frenship continued till sec 4..startin of sec 4 we still meet up..chit chat..hav fun..but as e days go by contact grew less..i m nt even sure im their fren animore..i feel broken..jux as e tone of de song is describin how i feel..nt onli broken..left out..upset..e title really expresses me well..i feel lik singin e anthem of my dying day..but i cant..life has 2 go on..i hope 1 day they check their fone an remember a name under section d..d a sumting..cox i really feel damn bad..dun feel lik doin anyting le..hope time stops 4 me..how i wish i can find a peaceful place 2 let out all my troubles.. ;( ..i feel lik..a glass abt 2 b shattered..

sign off,
all broken up
ReMuS SpItFiRe
DaRiuS

AntheM Of DYiNg DAy!!

2005-01-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Our dying day
Of our dying!!!

arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!1

2005-01-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

shuX!!!!my com is havin probs..kep hangin..dammit!!! aRGHHH!!! F@#! la..wa lau eh..so sickenin..haix..nvm ..i faster type lo..haix..2day almost notin nice notin bad happen la..got english remedial after school..damn borin..hahax..tey play points..our grp name?? nothing.com.sg..nice ah?? hahax..actually we were tie de..22 points on 22 points..e rest of e 4 grps lose den last min keep givin ans..wa..in e end we won 45marks 2 24marks..woah!!shiok ah..wonder how my otr frenx(same and diff schools) r doing..i hope they r fine..cox w/0 them i now feel really left out..hahax..hopes no 1 c's wad i post 2day..mayb read some otrs days post..but now 2day..haix..talk abt frenx also berry sian le..alot of troubles but no 1 tell me..or no 1 Bother 2 tell..mux do some probing on my own den find out some news..haix.s wait until late late den tell me..haix..nvm liao lo..i sian le..noting 2 do @ home..nobody 2 accompany me go out..nvm lo..i stay @ home & rot..haix..hiax..haix..

Sign off,
ReMuS SpItFiRe
DaRiUs!..HaiX!!

haIx!

2005-01-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

2day has got 2 b e most disheartenin day i had..i heard of 2 breakups in jux a span of 20mins..wow..all my frenx..1 tru sms..1 tru letter..aiyoyo..so bad..but mux remember..life mux go on..u guys and gals r still young..if get hu im referin 2..its mostly 2 some of my mei's..though nt e same school..i've been their peacekeeper in otr words e united nations(UN)..my job is rather tough..though e battles i fight r relatively much smaller..but its a big 2 BIG 4 a small boi lik me..u get wad i mean..it relates 2 bein big and small la..aiya..battles big or small..tey mean alot 2 e world..and can mean alot 4 us..i wana keep my frenz,sisters and brothers 2gether even though it will cost me e frenships of many otrs..tts e little sacrifice im willin 2 make..in tis case though i will lose frenx on my side..i get 2 c them hapi and havin more frenx on their side..but afterall it comes back down 2 a simple give and take,forgive and forget,cherish gd ol' times...and most imptly..life will always go on..

FreNX 4ever,
ReMuS
I Will b..
will u?

woah!

2005-01-09T19:37:00.000+08:00

hahax..YtD nVr update bcox went 2 me cousin house..until 12.30++ den come back..hahax..so now i update..woah..its been 1 heck of a weekend..can say quite fun and quite boring..cox i managed 2 hav fun wif my cousins and tt e week is really comin 2 an end..haix!!! SCHOOL SUX..haix..heard frm minjia got 3 ppl same nick as me..how come..so many @sses?? hahax..boring..mayb i go tink of a new nick le..hahax..noting 2 wrtie..sign off!!
Reportin off,
ReMuS

yellow card..onli 1

2005-01-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

Yellowcard LyricsOnly One
Broken this fragile thing nowAnd I can't, I can't pick up the piecesAnd I've thrown my words all aroundBut I can't, I can't give you a reasonI feel so broken up (so broken up)And I give up (I give up) I just want to tell you so you knowHere I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to youYou are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you doYou are my only, my only oneMade my mistakes, let you downAnd I can't, I can't hold on for too longRan my whole life in the groundAnd I can't, I can't get up when you're goneAnd something's breaking up (breaking up)I feel like giving up (like giving up)I won't walk out until you knowHere I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to youYou are my only oneI let go, there's just no one who gets me like you doYou are my only my only oneHere I go so dishonestlyLeave a note for you my only oneAnd I know you can see right through meSo let me go and you will find someoneHere I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to youYou are my only oneI let go, there's just no one, no one like youYou are my only, my only oneMy only oneMy only oneMy only oneYou are my only, my only one

Yea!!

2005-01-07T21:25:00.001+08:00

i hope e music is hear-able..i hope..wow..yeah..special thx 2 huei chin and those tt R my frenx..hahax..make tis short and sweet..haix..missin e good old dayx..hmm..mayb my dreams mite come true..mayb mite nt..im contented 2 no i hav my frenx ard..

SiaNzAtIoN!!!

2005-01-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

woohoo..feelin left out iz really fun..hahax..im kinda "enjoyin" da loneliness..hmm..how bout addin some silence? tt wld b excellent..erm..it wld b e best cocktail 4 lone ppl..anyway..im used 2 it le..onli remembered wen "resources" r used out..since wen did tt nt happen??haiX??sld i b doin tt??mayb nt..i dun deserve 2 do tt..mayb im jux 2 "loyal" afren tt ppl take me 4 granted..nvm lo..mayb is until e spitfire side of me comes out tt onli will i b remembered..yeah!! mayb tts it..now many ppl hav tis new trend..hahax.. i tink i sld adopt 1..u no wad it is?? YES!!!..i no how 2 describe it in full description..SUICIDAL INTENT..yes..tt should bgr8!!..wow..hahax..mayb den will i b hapi..mayb den will e greed,e fickle mindedness,e stupidity,e wadever,will b gone..hahax..happiness..was nvr meant 2 b mine..tts 1 ting i no 4 sure..hahax..tinkin abt tt idea has already made me feel beta..i duno y..mayb..its meant 2 b my way of life..hahax..muahaha..i tink im feelin beta..mayb i change my nick 2 spitfire remus..let e spitfire in me take over..wow..let e monster in me roar..im feelin quite tired of bein alone..mayb its lik e lion..bcox its so fierce tt it has many frenx..after all..ppl also dun really lik me..so y sld i do all tis..4 e sake of frenship??oh..i get it..ya..i remember..a frenship tt was nvr returned..a frenship tt was abused?a frenship tt was neglected..and soon a frenship tt will b lost..mayb tis is it..i wana DIE!!!!!!!!!!!
siginin off..
spitFIRE ReMuS,
hell will reign supreme..
a.k.a DarIuS
war will inflict its damage..
time will heal its patients..

haha??

2005-01-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

haiX!!!!!!!!!! i finish typin half of da stoopid blog den some stoopid advert appear..now i hav 2 restart tis blog.. wTF.. @S i was sayin.. SCREW TIS WORLD.. F%^& la..Y DA HUMANS ON TIS F!@# WORLD SO DAMN FICKLE MINDED? i remember some time last year i heard some "bro" sayin nt 2 b involve wif stead..now he currently is in 1 and i dun blame him..ppl do hav crushes &puppy lov..some realy love.. but wad tt really infuriates me is da fact tt he kept it a secret frm me.. ok..WTF DO U CALL ME A BRO 4??FUN?? nvrtheless..i tok tings fine.. i toked nicely 2 tem..& jux recently i heard frm my fren tt he say i was showin him attitude??? wtf?? he was already startin 2 drift away frm me.. and i DEFINITELY WAS NT SHOWIN HIM ANY ATTITUDE.. i hav always toked 2 him in tis manner..i tot..wow nvm..den my fren say he tell me i got attitude prob..wa..nvr mind la..fed up..dun say liao..thx 4 bein such "NICE" "BROS"..thx..all i can say

signin off,
ReMuS SPiTfIRe,
a.k.a AnGrY DarIUS

MiSsEs

2005-01-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

lolx..i kinda miss e school holidayzz wif my frenx..lolx..i also miss my frenz..hahax..hahax..erm..all area 14 ppl..tt i no wo jiu miss le..hahax..cox now skool start..i feel so separated frm them..& i dun like tis type of feelin..hahax..e 1st day of school is da lousiest..though i brought a few books ..i got shoulder pain frm carryin my bag ard..i hope u(guyz and galz) guys did nt..haiz..sec 4 start 2 prove 2 b a hard and stressful yr..but we muz also prove tt stress is nt a prob 4 us..
stress is a veri powerful ting..2 me..stress can change me in2 a "monster" in a few secs..all it takes is 4 my t'cher 2 screw up & he will get my disaproval immediately..some of my sec 3 t'chers were changed bcox our class turned out 2 b extremely unhappy wif some t'chers..lolx..esp a t'cher named Mr Alvin Ng..muahaha..muz esp focus on his name..put him 2 shame..he teach our class maths until onli 6 pass..*shame shame* hahax..also partly e class fault..he teach already worse den we still dun pay enuf attention..so miss out on alot..turns out tt tis year a new t'cher name Mr derek wong is teachin our class maths,social studies & hist..lucky i nt history student if nt on tuesdays i will get 2 c him 4 6 periods..*woah* scary man..imagine all his books nvr bring..how much detention u wana get?? so far now tis t'cher is really great..4 3 periods..he teach 2 periods and tells jokes 4 1period..so is kinda relaxin 4 us..haha..turn out tt our class kinda likes him..big joker..hahax..he likes 2 giv us mind tricks..
talkin abt mind tricks..i learnt some from him..*woah* nex time show u guys..muahahaha..some damn lame..some damn funi..hahax..but nonetheless..class will b fun..i guess so far is fine..but i wun b able 2 tell..i gt my 1st 'O' level paper le..is my d&t..i got until august 9 2 finish..we will b rushin alot tis year..
cannt blame any1..hu call us 2 slack so much last year?? haiz..now is work work work..all work & no play makes DarIuS a dull boy..all play & no work maKes dAriUS a haPi boy!! yeah!!..but rite now my education is more impt..w/o it..u mite jux c me cleanin toilets..*bleahXXX* no way man..time out..im gonna study..try 2 pass wif maximum 20 points..tt means i muz work extremely hard le..can sort of 4get abt play..i guess i end here le..pls tell me how u guys fared..

signin off,
ReMus,
a.k.a DaRiuS

NeW!!

2005-01-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

though e year 2005 marks a new begainin..it signifies tt ppl will change 4 e beta..tru sumting we call new year resolutions..and though i will change 4 e beta..tis does nt mean tt my old frens will c a new me..they will c e old me+added features..ppl in life seek improvements..if in singapore(little island) u dun seek improvements..ppl consider u or-bit(or outdated)haha..lol..ok..tis new year will mean tt our frenship is renewed again..& tt true frens will stay in contacts..true frens nvr leave u alone..they nvr giv u peace..instead they will keep botherin u..2 make sure u r fine..but nt 2 e extent of callin u every min 2 check..mil..thx 4 e keychain..its rather meaninful..and tt erm..u gals sld try borrow & c wad it says abt me..im sure u gals will laugh till u get stomach cramps..lol..

signin off!!
ReMuS,
A.k.a DaRiuS

borIN!!

2005-01-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

muahaha..tis my 1st day in my old skool..hahazz..lotzz of new & outrageously stoopid rules..haha..hair 2 long..after skool muz rush out go cut..den rush back b4 4.30pm..or cpunted as truancy..den will get suspended..lolx..big JOKE!! haha..wonder how my otr frenz r doin..mayb they r beta off den me..mayb some worse den me..Hu NoEs?? lol..tis bloggin is actually kinda fun..cox i can exercise my fingers typin all these stuff..& it acts as my memory..lol..except..tis memory dun tell me got wad hmwrk..;p

signin off,
ReMuS,
a.k.a DaRiuS

tis 1..

2005-01-03T13:31:00.000+08:00

tis 1 is 4 huei chin..hahaz..thx 4 helpin me out wif tis blog..i guess i kinda a noobie in tis area of expertise

attention all friends..

2005-01-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

lol..guess i have noting 2 do..yup..though tis is e begainin of a new year..it does not mean ur old friends r goin out..i do hope tt ur old friends will in time change 2 gold & prove an invaluable asset to u..they will b priceless..no amt of $$ can buy these type of friends..2 me..i will definitely treasure these friends..CHEERS 2 OUR FRIENDSHIP..

sign off,
as friends sincerely
ReMuS
a.k.a DarIuS

new blog.......AGAIN!! seems kinda borin

2005-01-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

hahaZz..kinda lost my otr acc de user name le..dammit..wasted..tt 1 setup hao le lehZz..wa lao..nvm..hahaz..memories on board..itink tis iz gonna b a permanent part of my life le..haha..gd & bad memoirs..haha..guess i onli wan e gd part

signin off:
ReMuS
a.k.a DaRiUs